Sometimes even when you don’t want to, you have to give up your happiness for the person you love/like to be happy. No matter how perfect they are for you..no matter how many times you smile when you receive a text from that person. You have to let them want what they want, even if it’s not you. 

You’re time will come if you just wait it out.

So that’s what I am going to do, wait it out. Though I know you don’t/won’t like me I’ll still like you. & for the time being, I can. But then one day someone else will come a long and like me too. 

Patience, usually not so good with it, but I’ll be patient so I don’t ruin an awesome friendship.:P

I still like you…. A LOT.

I live in America, the place where everyone should be able to live the “American Dream”. But in reality, not a lot of people can unless you are put in a certain category. Before I go off on a big rant..let me tell you a little about myself. 

I am 17 years old and have lived in America all of my life trying my best to succeed  throughout school. I have never been sent to the principals, I never got slips of bad behavior, I always had good grades nothing lower then a C+(which happened to be in AP classes) , and one last thing I have been a Girl Scout for twelve years. I have earned many badges, patches, etc. My Bronze, Silver, & Gold Award. I always would give back to my community. 

So here’s where the messed up part comes in.. I don’t qualify for any money for college. My parents make “too much” so I can’t get FASFA, but they don’t make enough to pay for me to go to college. I can’t get federal plus loans because all my cosigners have bad credit because we haven’t had money for certain things, and my house almost got foreclosed. I’ve applied for scholarships, but I got shit. Nothing. I’m not the right ethnicity to be able to get money for college. So I am stuck. My American Dream is no where near being a reality. 

Then you have those dumb people who apply for college and only go for the financial aid check. They only want to be there for the first set of classes until they get the money in the mail and drop out. What has America succumb to? All that money that is being WASTED on people who work the system can go to people like me, who don’t get the help that we should get.

Dream Act? Can go suck it. Cause where’s my dream? In the toliet, I can’t go to the school of my dreams because of people who get money when they don’t even want to better their future. 

American Dream is not a dream everyone can have. 

Okay, I’m done.

Holy crap. 

I have never cried that hard EVER in my life. I never thought that I would be the one crying the last day, but I did..

I swear.<3 Anywho, I have finally made it, Class of 2012.<3 Whoop.

I am so proud of myself, but at the same time I am SO SCARED.

I don’t know how I am going to get the money to pay for college.. how the next years of my life are going to be like.. but all I know it’s gunna be one day at a time.

Talking to people from a different state when you're from California:

• Them: Where you from?!
• Me: California, a dirt hole of a town.
• Them: Really?!? I thought California was like the best!
• Me: Not really.
• Them: You go to the beach everyday don't you?
• Me: Nope, I hardly go to the beach cause I live an hour away.
• Them: Really? I thought all of California had beaches.
• Me: Not when you live in the hot ass desert.
• Them: There's deserts in California?
• Me: Yeah, and we have these things called mountains, and forests.
• Them: What? :P